Cant change the facts of you and i but you still do what you do. if im just a friend babe y do i know what your lips feel like. If im just a friend babe then my camera must be tellin lies. you act like i dnt meet you standards like im not good enough to stand beside you.  idk y but i go crazy when i c u with her i need a staright jacket for my mouth cuz jealous just keeps coming out. but there is nothing i can do. but u txtn my phone non stop tryna tell me how you feel and how much u wanna hang and how amazing my kisses are but im just a friend…. Right??? Well if im just friend babe then u might just be crazy baby.

I say I use guys as a crutch. But the confusin and the attention keeps me distracted from the serious state of mind that im suppose to be in as a growing teenage. But my problem is my lack of commitment and frustration with that one thing i can’t have. There is a strong differencr between your heart and your mind. I feel like hes to dumb enough to see it. Instead he looks for the easy way out,instead of facing whats right in front of his face. I feel he trys to keep me close because he knows what he wants. He doesn’t let me get far or something like if i go off on and fall for someone he finds ways to block it or break it up. Or am i just dumb and hes just inmuture and won’t grow up.Am i suppose to move on and have him run after me or do i cave every time? Its not easy when u falliin hard and he keeps you in the cut to let you desentagarate to just a teddy bear on his bed when he wants to hug or cuddle. -Forever Lost